Coff

Just to top things off, last night, the outside tendon around my left ankle either stretched or flipped. Thought it was fine this morning, but every once in a while, completely randomly, it will burst into pain.

Fuck this.

Honky

I don’t feel like updating. I’d just like to point out that last night, somehow, I slept on my arm or something very, very, very wrongly. Now, I can’t straighten my left arm at all. It hurts so much. And now it’s started to ache even while I’m resting it bent. Left knee, left thumb, left foot, left elbow. Oh, and I potentially have shingles, since there’s an itchy rash-type thing on the right side of my torso. What the fuck is this?

Either way, I’m extremely tired of being in pain all the time. I thought it was over once my knee started feeling better, but it just keeps coming back in all sorts of new forms. I’m sick of it. Being in pain all the time is extremely demoralizing. I don’t even want to wake up in the mornings. I don’t want to go out and do anything. I don’t even want to type.

I’m so fucking frustrated with whatever the fuck’s been going on with my body for the past six months.

Just… really, really frustrated.

Passive Aggressive

I can’t say that all that much is new, event-wise.

I have made the decision to buy a desktop computer. I’m hoping to buy this computer and this monitor. I was ready to buy them on Friday (yesterday), but Mom talked me out of it. Not out of buying them, but out of buying it before my dad comes home. Her reasoning is that I should wait because there might be a sale on it (there won’t be), or the price will decrease (which it will, but by then, I could buy something even more amazing for the same price). So waiting wouldn’t really be that beneficial. Otherwise, she just wants me to tell Dad before I do it. And while I agree that yes, I should tell him before I get it, it’s my money and I do need a new desktop because this laptop is already almost four years old and there’s no telling what could happen. Not having a backup could be quite detrimental. Also, I could use the monitor as a TV-type for my vidja games when I move out somewhere down the road, since I won’t have a TV. I’m also going to keep my 19″ and dual screen with it. Anyway. I don’t intend to let Dad have control over what I do with my money. It’s just… hard to fight him. Because I feel like if he disapproves, I’ll have to deal with his scrutinizing looks all the time. He’ll also want to look at the computer I’ve picked out and judge it. Which I wish he wouldn’t do, because I’ve been looking at computers quite a bit recently and I know what I want. Anyway. I hope to buy the computer next week sometime, unless my parents give me some groundbreaking reason why I should wait.

There seems to be something wrong with my left foot. I distinctly noticed the pain two nights ago when I took my shoes off after school. I know, I keep going from one problem to another, thanks, I’m aware. Anyway, I can’t curl my toes. Well, that’s not true, I can curl my toes, but I cannot curl them and push them against the floor (as if to crack them, or just plain stretch them after wearing shoes all day). It feels like my tendon is bruised or has shrunk somehow and pushing down on my toes while curled is somehow stretching the tendon beyond its means or something. It’s really quite painful, especially because I have this burning desire to stretch my left foot since I can’t. Anyway, I’m holding off for a while to see if it gets better on its own… otherwise, it’s back to the doctor, again. Probably so he can tell me nothing useful, again, and I end up waiting for it to get worse, again, and somehow fixing the problem myself, again. I’m starting to think I’m just really bitter tonight.

Danny was kind enough to give me his Windows 7 32bit key that he gets for being a computer science major (since he installed the 64bit on his laptop, since it’s the only computer he has). So my laptop is officially running Windows 7. I wasn’t going to upgrade the OS ’cause I didn’t feel like pouring any money into my lappy, but if it’s free, I’ll definitely take it. I must say, I do enjoy the OS. It’s very fast and slick. I approve so far.

I’m currently at Chris’ place. It’s a very nice place. Older, but kept in great condition. I’m very impressed with Chris and Nick and their luck (or skill?) in finding apartments. I hope I’m able to find a place as nice as theirs someday.

My energy level has pretty much run out. I was up too late sorting out Windows 7 stuff and driving Sarika/Tyler/Danny home and then woke up too early to shower and work. And I’ve worked a 10 hour shift and now I’m here. I’ve got nothing left. I look forward to sleeping in a bit tomorrow. I think Mom and I are going to try for Avatar 3D again. I also need to work on prepping for my in class essay on Monday for Canadian Lit. I also need to pick a topic for Christine’s class by Tuesday. And finish a transcription for her by Thursday. Sigh. Things are picking up. One month of school down, two more to go.

Time’s flying.

I’m not.

hai i got nu hair

I loff my new hair. <3

That’s all for now.

I Miss You

Mom and I never ended up going to Avatar 3D. We tried, and both the 1pm and 2pm showings were sold out. Then we tried to go to Legion but the first showing wasn’t for hours. It was super disappointing :( to make ourselves feel better, we went to Blockbuster and rented Pandorum. It was alright. Entertaining for sure. We’re going to try to see Avatar again sometime soon. We’re paranoid that it’ll leave theaters before we can see it. Even though it’s still selling out, so that’s unlikely, but still.

Apparently my uncle is turning into quite the drunkard. Even more so than he’s always been, to the point where he’s drinking on the job. It’s sad. :[

Recently, I decided to get my hair cut, and much shorter than I normally do. I’m hoping to get it to mid-shoulder blade length or so, maybe a bit shorter. Natural Beauty Hair Design is where I usually go- my stylist, Melanie, is the only stylist I’ve had that cuts my hair really well (she’s the stylist that told me to stop fighting my curls and just let it happen). Anyway, NBHD’s hours of operation were so wonky that the only window of opportunity that I had was for three hours on Thursdays and I wasn’t even sure if Melanie was there during that time, or even there at all anymore. Turns out, she doesn’t work there anymore. The receptionist wasn’t sure where she went ’cause she was relatively new, but she guessed that she went to Chatters. So I called Chatters and lo and behold, there’s Melanie! And their hours are 9am-9pm, which means it’s way easier to get an appointment. It also means that I got an appointment two days from now. So! Haircut in two days. I’m super duper excited. I’m so sick of how ridiculously long and in-the-way my hair is now.

Something weird’s happened to my left hand since I sprained my thumb. Whenever I stretch, my fingers convulse for some reason and I can’t control it. So strange. Maybe I’m unconsciously not engaging my hand muscles in stretching and they convulse as a result of that. WHO KNOWS.

Oh yeah, I bought Bayonetta last week. Yay. Man I’m sleepy.

Son, today you’re going to run.

My manager never ceases to make my life awesome.

So I got to work 10 minutes early today, which is about usual- I went to Timmy’s and got breakfast and coffee for Kevin (my manager, if you haven’t caught on) and timbits for the coworkers ’cause… ’cause I wanted to. After leaving, I realized that they didn’t give me my bagel -.- so I actually went without breakfast, except for a couple of timbits, so that really sucked. BUT that’s not the point. Back to the story… usually, my manager gets to the store 10-15 minutes early, he’s always there by the time I get there; today he wasn’t. No big, he’s human. So I’m waiting and waiting, as is Sarah, the shipper that opens with us at eight. Eight o’clock rolls around and Kevin is still not here, which is super strange. He’s never ever late (and we can’t get into the store without him). So I’m looking around, kind of taking notice of a guy running down Delray across the street, a little speck of a guy. I fiddle with my iPod for a bit more and look up again to see Kevin running full tilt across the parking lot toward the store. I throw my hands up in the air confusedly at him in my car as he runs past and he looks at me like he’s been running a marathon or something.

So I go in the store and ask him why the hell he was… running. This is his story.

Well I was driving along down Webber road and alluva sudden my truck fuckin’ dies. So I’m all “FUCK” and I pull the bitch over and get out and the propane hose I jimmy rigged finally busted. I didn’t have any tools, or a new hose for that matter, so I was pretty fucked. Today also happens to be like the first day I’ve ever forgotten my phone at home. So I’m all “DOUBLE FUCK”, not that it would help me any ’cause calling the wife just means she’d have to pack up the kid and then wait for the diesel to warm up and by the time she came and got me I’d be late anyway. So it was then I knew: I had to make a decision. I looked down at my feet and noticed that for some reason I decided to wear my runners today instead of my steel toes. It was probably around that time that God looked down on me and said, “Son, today you’re going to run.” So I fucking ran. I fucking ran from Webber Road, all down Lower Glenrosa, not up the hill though ’cause I’m pretty sure I would’ve had a fucking heart attack. BUT AFTER THAT I fucking ran some more. I had to keep one hand in my pocket at all times though ’cause my coat’s pockets don’t have zippers so my keys would’ve fallen out. So I ran, one arm pumping, the other in my pocket holding my keys. And you know what, Dawn? I made it here in sixteen minutes. I was only like one or two minutes late. I almost fucking died, but I made it here. PRETTY FUCKING GOOD FOR A FAT OLD GUY LIKE ME EH? I fucking rocked that run. Ran like the fucking best. Tomorrow I gotta stretch it up and tackle that part of the hill I walked up. I gotta defeat that bitch. Wear my short 80s polyester Lordco shorts and sweatbands and just fuckin’ run.

Nothing will ever replace the memory of seeing Kevin running through the parking lot like a madman.
We figured out he ran about 2.5km.

Gimme gimme more, gimme more, gimme gimme more (gas)

I think Mum and I are going to see Avatar in 3D this weekend. That should be exciting. :3

The house across the street finally got busted for their grow op. They must have finally been able to get a warrant to go in last night (probably from the electricity theft). There were like seven police cars and vans and SUVs and BC Hydro vans to  safely shut down the power to the house, etc. 1544 plants were removed in the end. My dad was annoyingly excited about the whole ordeal.

Hanging out with the kids tonight and then going to dinner and then to Nick’s for DnD. I’m pretty stoked. I crave the company of friends lately. Speaking of which, Gavin stopped by during my break and dropped of his 1000BWC deck, so we can play it while he’s gone to Vancouver for three months [to work at the Olympics and such]. And to say bye, haw.

Saw the latest trailer for FFXIII, compliments of Craig. It looks mighty superb, I must say. And I like that they used a Leona Lewis song. I’m beginning to grow fond of her music, so I’ve nabbed her albums and will go through them later. I have also become a fan of djearworm’s remixes. Most notably the 2008 and 2009 mashups, as well as one of the other mashups. Good stuffs.

Still an hour until Tyler and Danny get out of their lab so we can take off and venture out into the wilderness (or, y’know, Danny’s house). I am rather hungry :( I’m trying to cut back on food ’cause frankly I think I eat too much. But it’s so hard when you feel hungry! I want a Booster Juice or something. I’d get one, but they only have the one big size here at school and I don’t want that much. Wah.

I get to meet Norma the kitty today. :3 B’awwww Normaaaaaa.

How now, saucebox?

I saw Daybreakers and The Book of Eli this weekend. The first was not mindblowing, but still good and entertaining. I very much enjoyed Eli. I guessed the plot twist near the beginning of the movie, but they did an excellent job of hiding it until the end while still giving you tons and tons of clues that can subtly tip you off without letting you be sure if you’re right or not. Anywho, movies are lovely. I get really pumped whenever I see a trailer for Clash of the Titans. It looks so good. Haven’t seen a trailer for Prince of Persia since Avatar, but I’m excited for that one too.

Got a brace for my thumb. It feels better when I’m doing stuff, but it makes typing really hard since that’s the thumb that I use. Sometimes I interchange and use my right thumb but I find the typing process too slow if I do that and I get frustrated and just go back to using my bum thumb. Anyway. It’s still really frustrating ’cause there’s stitching on the brace right where it’s tight to my thumb and it gets itchy.

My first Sunday off (excluding the day after Boxing Day) was today. I slept in and spent the rest of my day reading. I finished Diamond Grill (I finished Honey and Ashes Friday morning when I was on the bike). Diamond Grill was… bleh. I really didn’t enjoy reading it at all, so I’m glad it was a short book, ’cause by the end I was ready to burn it. I was going to play Valkyria Chronicles for an hour or two but then decided that I should just keep working on school stuff. So I read Marriage à la Mode, which I quite enjoyed. No time to do much else tonight, it’s already almost 10. I gotta turn in early-ish so I can get up to bike tomorrow morning, anyway.

Muuuurp. I guess Keeper’n Me is next on the reading list since Mothertalk isn’t in yet. I hope reading these early doesn’t come back to bite me in the ass. I know I’ll forget stuff about them later, but I’m afraid I just won’t have time to read them later if I leave them.

I need to stop drinking so much right before bed. Waking up to pee sucks.

I’m feeling awfully romantic tonight for no reason. SIGH.

Orion

I was able to nab a copy of She’s “Orion” album. I’ve only listened to half of it so far, but I love it. It’s very excellent. I will listen to it on my morning walk to the bus tomorrow morning (and I guess on the bus too).

I went to the doctor yesterday about my thumb. He checked for fragments broken off or swelling inside and stuff and all seems to be in order, which I expected because I can bend my thumb and move it around and stuff, so it isn’t broken. It is, however, sprained, and fairly badly. He said it will take anywhere from three to twelve months for it to heal. That means that I will be in pain the entire time. I don’t know what I’ll do if it ends up taking a year to heal… that is just too long to be in pain. Especially after I’ve finally gotten over my knee pain. It just sucks a lot, I guess. Very demoralizing. But, what can I do but deal with it? He says there’s nothing I can really do to help the healing aside from wrap it as I have been doing. Unfortunately, wrapping is a huge inconvenience, so I’m going to try and scour Kelowna for a brace that I can wear that will support my thumb, something that’s easier to slip on and off so that I can wash my hands more easily and stuff like that. And maybe something more comfortable. Anyway. Ever since the doctor looked at it and rolled it around to look at it, it’s been very painful and stiff, but that could be coincidence.

Homework progress has been a bit slow lately, but that’s because I haven’t had time. Weekly shows have started up again… which takes chunks out of my evenings. Which sounds just silly, I know, I should get my priorities straight, but… I like my shows. :3 I’m still on schedule, though. So that’s good :]

American Idol prelims right now. I enjoy these so much. <3

Boo, early morning tomorrow. Stupid exercise.

Man, I love Elton John a lot.

Honey and Ashes

…is a hard book to keep track of. There are generation jumps all over the place. I started reading it today. I’m about 100 pages in. Kevin has said that, in order to avoid having Denise work the till since she’s kinda sorta really irresponsible, I can do my homework at work on the weekends when it’s dead, as long as I keep manning the till and don’t let Denise on. So that’s pretty cool. I tried it out today with reading Honey and Ashes. I’d say I did fairly well, considering it’s hard to stay engaged in the book and the print is really small. So this just might work for two months or so. I think once I hit mid-March/April, I’ll have to officially take Sundays off for a little while so I can write my papers. I’ll try my best to work on them (as well as my assignments) ahead of time so that maybe I don’t have to take them off, but we’ll see. Until then, I’ll try this working while doing homework thing.

Me thumb seems to be having an issue healing, so I’m going to go to the doctor tomorrow after school. I just don’t wanna worry about it healing wrongly and being messed up forever. Also to make sure it’s not actually secretly fractured. Because that would suck. At any rate, I’m really hoping the doctor will supply me with a splint ’cause it’s not very comfortable in the angle that it’s in when it’s wrapped and I think it will feel better at a splinted angle.

Release date for Heavy Rain was announced! February 23. :3 Too bad I’m still in school. I am going to have so many games to play when I graduate.

I get a little excited when I say “when I graduate” when referring to a few months from now. It’s much more exciting than when I graduated high school. It feels like it has so much more meaning now ’cause this is really it (unless I go for my MA…). I feel like I’m finally getting somewhere. I best not get too excited- we’ve only been in school for a week. There are still like… a million weeks to go. Oh boy, but I sure can’t wait for reading week.

Anyway. I finished reading Losing the Dead a couple days ago. I also started and finished Je me Souviens. So that’s two novels down, five to go. I’m about a third of the way through Honey and Ashes. I hope to have it finished by Friday. I don’t know what comes after that (I think it’s Diamond Grill) but I think I can read Diamond Grill in a day at work on Sunday, so I’ll finish that. Then that’ll leave me with Keeper ‘N Me, Mothertalk, and De Niro’s Game. Still waiting on Mothertalk to come in at the bookstore, though. Sigh. I hope this goes as well as I’ve planned. Somewhere in there I need to find the time to do my Restoration readings and stuff.

I am proud that I am making a very decent effort to get ahead, though. Go you, Dawn. Go you. I will sneak some celebratory chocolate chips tonight.

[10:11pm]

Note to self (and Sarika and Cam, I guess)- The London Cuckolds would only cost $8.33 to photocopy the copy on reserve. I am just going to screw buying the book on Amazon and photocopy the whole thing. It’s cheaper and much, much easier. I must remember to do this sometime this week.